Dangerous Angels with Bonus Materials Page 14

“Cherokee and Raphael are doing it!” Witch Baby sang.

  Cherokee tried to ignore her.

  “Aren’t you? Aren’t you doing it?”

  “Shut up, Witch.”

  “You are! I hear you guys. And you look all tired all the time.”

  “Stop it, Witch. You shouldn’t talk. Why would you want to move out into the shed? I bet I know what you and Angel Juan do out there.”

  Witch Baby was quiet. She gnawed her fingernails and pulled at a snarl-ball in her hair. Right away, Cherokee wished she hadn’t said anything. She realized that Witch Baby wouldn’t tease her if Witch and Angel Juan were doing the same thing.

  Witch Baby bared her teeth at Cherokee. “I’m writing to Weetzie and telling!” she said as she roller-skated away.

  Cherokee watched Angel Juan and Witch Baby more closely after that. She saw how Angel Juan tousled Witch Baby’s hair and picked her up sometimes. But he did it like an older brother. When Witch Baby looked at Angel Juan, her tilty eyes turned the color of amethysts and got so big that her pointed face seemed smaller than ever.

  One day, while The Goat Guys were rehearsing, Raphael went over and touched Cherokee’s hair. It was only a light touch but it was so charged that tiny electric sparks seemed to flare up. Witch Baby stopped drumming. Angel Juan’s eyes were hidden behind his sunglasses. Witch Baby looked at him. Then she got up and ran out of the room.

  Cherokee followed her into the garden. “What is it, Witch?” she asked.

  Witch Baby didn’t answer.

  “I see how he looks at you when you wear your wings and play drums for him. I think he’s just afraid of his feelings.”

  Witch Baby shrugged and chewed her fingernails.

  “Tell me about Angel Juan.”

  Witch Baby didn’t say anything about Angel Juan out loud, but Cherokee could tell what she was thinking.

  He is a dangerous flamenco shadow dancer and a tiny boy playing music in the gutter. His soul sounds like my drums and looks like doves. He is fireworks. He is the black-haired angel playing his bass on the top of the tree, on the top of the cake. I want him to see the flowers in my eyes and hear the songs in my hands.

  After a show at The Vamp, some girls followed Raphael backstage. They wanted to stroke his fur pants, they told him, giggling. One kept flicking out her tongue like a snake. They wore black bras and black leather miniskirts.

  Cherokee stood with her arms crossed on her chest, watching them. Then she noticed that Angel Juan was standing in the same position with a frown on his face that matched her own. He turned and stalked out of the club, and Witch Baby came and stood beside Cherokee.

  “All the girls pay attention to Raphael but Angel Juan is a slinkster-cool bass player and beautiful, too,” Cherokee said.

  “Ever since you made Raphael those goat pants, he’s been acting like the only person in the band,” Witch Baby said. Then she added, “You never made anything for Angel Juan.”

  Cherokee wished the girls would leave Raphael alone, take their hands off his hips and their breasts away from his face. But she thought he was happier lately than he had ever been and he would hold her in the tepee that night and sing songs he had made up about her until the images of the girls drifted out of her head and she fell into a sleep of running animals and breaking lily-filled waves. But what about Witch Baby? She would be curled up in the shed under the bass drum, alone. She would dream of Angel Juan’s obsidian hair and deer face, reach for him and find a hollow drum. What about Angel Juan? Cherokee thought. He would be waiting outside for them by his red truck with a frown on his face. He would drive home with swerves and startling stops. He would not look at any of them, especially Witch Baby. He was the only Goat Guy Cherokee had not made a present for.

  What should I do for Angel Juan? Cherokee wondered. I will ask Coyote.

  Cherokee, Witch Baby, and Raphael went out to meet Angel Juan at his truck.

  “We were hot tonight,” said Raphael.

  Angel Juan turned to him. “What makes you think you are such a star all of a sudden, man?”

  “I said we. I can’t help it if the girls like me,” Raphael said, tossing his dreadlocks back over his bare shoulders.

  “They might like me too if I shook my hips at them like some stripper chick.”

  “Maybe they would.” Raphael grinned and swiveled his hips in the goat pants. “Why don’t you, man? Too freaked out?”

  That was when Angel Juan made a fist and hit Raphael in the stomach under his ribs. Raphael staggered backward, staring at Angel Juan as if he weren’t quite sure what had just happened.

  Cherokee put her arms around Raphael. I will have to go back to Coyote, she thought.

  Cherokee asked Coyote if she could go running with him around the lake. It was a morning of green mist, and needles of sun were coming through the pines. Cherokee had to run at her very fastest pace to keep up with Coyote’s long legs. She glanced over at his profile—the proud nose, the flat dreamy eyelids, the trail of blue-black hair.

  “Coyote…” Cherokee panted.

  “We are running, Cherokee Bat,” Coyote said. “Keep running. Think of making your legs long. Think of deer and wind.”

  When they had circled the lake twice, Cherokee leaned against a tree to catch her breath. She felt as if Coyote had been testing her, forcing her forward.

  “Coyote,” she said. “I have to ask you something.”

  Coyote was tall. He never smiled. He had chosen to live alone, to work and mourn and see visions, in a nest above the smog. The animals came to him when he spoke their names. He was full of grace, wisdom and mystery. He had seen his people die, wasted on their lost lands. Cherokee had never seen his tears but she thought they were probably like drops of turquoise or liquid silver, like tiny moons and stars showering from his eyes. She knew that he had more important things to do than give her gifts. But still, she needed him. And she had gone this far.

  “Coyote, Angel Juan is jealous of Raphael. He’s shy around girls—even Witch Baby, and I know he loves her. Witch Baby is jealous of how Raphael is with me. She wants Angel Juan to treat her the same way. Angel Juan is the only one of The Goat Guys I haven’t made anything for,” Cherokee blurted out. Then she stopped. Coyote was eyeing her.

  “Cherokee Bat,” he said. “The birds have given you feathers for Witch Baby. The goats have given you fur for Raphael Chong Jah-Love. What do you want now?”

  “I want the horns on your shelf for Angel Juan,” Cherokee whispered.

  She was braced against the tree, and she realized that she was waiting for something, for thunder to crack suddenly or for the ground to shake. But nothing happened. The morning was quiet—the early sun coaxing the fragrance from the pines and the earth. Coyote did not even blink. He was silent for a while. Then he spoke.

  “My people are great runners, Cherokee. They go on ritual runs. Before these they abstain from eating fatty meat and from sexual relations. These things can drain us.”

  Cherokee looked down at the ground and shrugged. “What do you mean?”

  “You know what I mean. You are very young still. So is Raphael. Angel Juan and Witch Baby are both very young. You must be careful. While your parents are away, I am responsible. Use your wisest judgment and protect yourself.”

  “We do. I do,” Cherokee said. “Weetzie told me and Witch Baby all about that stuff. But this is about Angel Juan. We all have what we want, but it’s been harder for him his whole life and now he’s the only one without a present.”

  “There is power, great power,” Coyote said. “You do not understand it yet.”

  “I am careful,” Cherokee insisted. “Besides, if I haven’t been responsible, it doesn’t have to do with you or with the wings and haunches. I just want the horns for Angel Juan so he won’t feel left out.”

  “I cannot do any more for you. You’ll have to make something else for Angel Juan. I cannot give you the horns.”

  “Coyote…”

  “I want you to try
to get more sleep,” Coyote said. “If you want to find the trail, if you want to find yourself, you must explore your dreams alone. You must grow at a slow pace in a dark cocoon of loneliness so you can fly like wind, like wings, when you awaken.”

  I’m awake now, Cherokee wanted to shout. I’m a woman already and you want to keep me a child. You want us all to be children.

  But instead she turned, jumped on Raphael’s red bicycle and rode down the hill, away from the lake, away from Coyote.

  Cherokee could not stop thinking about the horns. Why was Coyote so afraid of giving them to her? She had always known inside that the wings and the haunches were not just feathers and fur. The horns must have even greater power.

  Cherokee rode home and found Witch Baby practicing her drums in the shed.

  “I tried to get a present for Angel Juan,” Cherokee said. “But Coyote won’t help me. I don’t know what to do.”

  “What about those goat horns you were talking about?”

  Cherokee played with one of her braids. “Coyote said the horns have a lot of power. He’s afraid to give them to us.”

  Witch Baby crunched up her face. “It’s not fair. Coyote helped you get presents for me and Raphael.” She was quiet for a moment. “I wonder what’s so special about the horns,” she said. “I want to find out.”

  “Witch, don’t do anything creepy,” Cherokee said. “Coyote is like a dad to us and he is very powerful.”

  Witch Baby pulled a tangle-ball out of her hair, looked at it and growled. Watching her, Cherokee wished she hadn’t said anything about the horns. Witch Baby might do something. But at the same time Cherokee was curious. What would happen to The Goat Guys if they had the magic horns?

  I don’t need to know, Cherokee told herself. I’ll think of something else for Angel Juan. And Witch Baby is only a little girl. She won’t be able to do anything Coyote doesn’t want her to do.

  Witch Baby was little. She was so small that she was able to slip in through the window of Coyote’s shack one night. Witch Baby was very quiet when she wanted to be, and very fast—so quiet and fast that she was able to take the goat horns off a shelf and leave with them in her arms while Coyote slept. Witch Baby was very much in love. She had convinced Angel Juan to drive her up to Coyote’s shack late at night and wait for her because, she said, Coyote had a present for them. Witch Baby was so in love that all she cared about was getting the horns. She didn’t even think about how Coyote would feel when he woke a few moments after the red truck had disappeared down the hillside and saw that the familiar horn shadow was not falling across the floor in the moonlight.

  When Witch Baby and Angel Juan got back to Witch Baby’s house, they sat in the dark truck.

  “Well, aren’t you going to let me see?” Angel Juan asked.

  Witch Baby took the horns out from under her jacket and gave them to him.

  “Oopa! Brujita!”

  “They’re for you. I asked Coyote if I could have them for you.”

  Angel Juan held the horns up on his head and looked at himself in the rearview mirror. His eyes shone, darker than the lenses of the sunglasses he almost always wore.

  “Thank you, Baby. This is the coolest present. I feel like a real Goat Guy now.”

  Witch Baby looked down to hide the flowers blooming in her eyes, the heat in her cheeks. Angel Juan leaned over and kissed her face. Bristling roughness and shivery softness, heat and cool, honeysuckle and tobacco and fresh bread and spring. The horns gleaming like huge teeth in Angel Juan’s lap. Then Witch Baby leaped out of the car.

  “Wait! Baby!” Angel Juan leaned his head out the window of the truck and watched her run into the shed. The horns were cool, pale bone.

  Angel Juan attached them to a headband so he could wear them when he played bass. The next night, backstage at The Vamp, he put them on and admired himself in the mirror. He looked taller, his chin more angular, and he thought he noticed a shadow of stubble beginning to grow there. He took off his sunglasses and turned to Witch Baby.

  “Hey, what do you think?”

  “You are a fine-looking Goat Guy, Angel Juan.”

  Cherokee and Raphael came through the door. Raphael and Angel Juan hadn’t been speaking since the fight, but now, wearing his horns, Angel Juan forgot all about it. And Raphael was so impressed by the horns that he forgot too.

  “Cool horns,” he said, swinging his tail.

  Cherokee gasped and pulled Witch Baby aside.

  “What did you do?” She dug her nails into Witch Baby’s arm. “Coyote will kill us!”

  “Let go, clutch! I did it because I love Angel Juan. Just like you got goat pants for your boyfriend.”

  “I didn’t go against anyone’s rules.”

  “You and your stupid clutchy rules!”

  “We have to give them back! Witch!”

  Witch Baby jammed her hand into her mouth and began gnawing on her nails. Cherokee looked over at Angel Juan. He was very handsome with his crown of horns and he was smiling.

  Maybe it would be okay just this once, Cherokee thought. We could play one show with the horns. Angel Juan would feel so good. And maybe the horns are really magical. Maybe something magical will happen.

  Angel Juan was still showing Raphael the horns. He looked over at Witch Baby. “That niña bruja got them for me. Pretty good job, hey?” He grinned.

  Cherokee sighed. “Listen, Witch,” she whispered. “We’ll play one gig with the horns and then we’ll tell Angel Juan that Coyote has to have them back. We’ll get him another present. But we can’t keep them.”

  Witch Baby didn’t say anything. It was time to go on.

  If the crowd had loved The Goat Guys before, had loved the Rasta boy with animal legs, the drummer witch with wings and the dancing blur of blonde and fringe and beads that was Cherokee, then tonight they loved the angel with horns.

  Angel Juan’s horns glowed above everything, pulsing with ivory light. His body moved as if he were the music he played. When he slid to his knees and lifted his bass high, the veins in his arms and hands were full.

  We are a heart, Cherokee thought.

  After the set, she watched Angel Juan pick Witch Baby up in his arms and swing her around. Cherokee had never seen either of them look so happy. She hated to think about taking the horns back to Coyote.

  But Angel Juan has the confidence he needs now even without the horns, she told herself. We all do.

  So at dawn the next morning, Cherokee untangled herself from Raphael, crawled out of the tepee and tiptoed across the wet lawn to the garden shed. She saw Witch Baby and Angel Juan lying together on the floor, their dark hair and limbs merged so that she could not tell them apart. Only when they moved slightly could she see both faces, but even then they wore the same dreamy smile, so it was hard to tell the difference. Then Cherokee saw the horns gleaming in a corner of the shed. She lifted them carefully, wrapped them in a sheet and carried them away with her.

  Cherokee got on Raphael’s bicycle and started to ride to Coyote’s shack. But at the foot of Coyote’s hill Cherokee stopped. She took the horns from the basket on the front of the bicycle and stroked them, feeling the weight, the smooth planes, the rough ridges, the sharp tips. She thought of last night on stage, the audience gazing up at The Goat Guys, hundreds of faces like frenzied lovers. It had never been like that before. She thought of the witch and angel twins, wrapped deep in the same dream on the floor of the garden shed.

  Cherokee did not ride up the hill to Coyote’s shack. Goat Guys, she whispered, turning the bike around. Beatles, Doors, Pistols, Goat Guys.

  When Cherokee got home, the horns weighing heavy in the basket on the front of Raphael’s bicycle, the sun had started to burn through the gray. Some flies were buzzing around the trash cans no one had remembered to take in.

  Cherokee felt sweat pouring down the sides of her body and the sound of Raphael’s guitar pounded in her head as she walked up the path.

  Witch Baby was waiting in the living r
oom eating Fig Newtons. She glared at Cherokee. “Where are they?”

  Cherokee handed over the horns. Then she turned and went to her tepee, pulled the blanket over her head and fell asleep.

  The wind blew a storm of feathers into her mouth, up her nostrils. Goats came trampling over the earth, stirring up clouds of dust. Horns of white flame sprang from their heads. And in the waves of a dark dream-sea floated chunks of bone, odd-shaped pieces with clefts in them like hooves.

  At the next Goat Guy show, the band came on stage with their wings, their haunches, their horns. The audience swooned at their feet.

  Cherokee spun and spun until she was dizzy, until she was not sure anymore if she or the stage was in motion.

  Afterward two girls in lingerie and over-the-knee leather boots offered a joint to Raphael and Angel Juan. All four of them were smoking backstage when Cherokee and Witch Baby came through the door.

  Witch Baby went and wriggled onto Angel Juan’s lap. He was wearing the horns and massaging his temples. His face looked constricted with pain until he inhaled the smoke from the joint.

  “Are you okay?” Witch Baby asked.

  “My head’s killing me.”

  Angel Juan offered the burning paper to Witch Baby. She inhaled, coughed and gave it to Raphael, who also took a hit.

  “Want a hit, Kee?” he asked.

  The girls in boots looked at each other, their lips curling back over their teeth.

  “No thanks,” Cherokee said. She went and stood next to Raphael and began playing with his hair.

  The girls in boots crossed and uncrossed their legs, then stood up.

  “We’ll see you guys later,” said one, looking straight at Raphael. The other smiled her snarl at Angel Juan. Then they left.

  “Ick! Nasty!” Witch Baby hissed after them.

  “I saw that one girl in some video at The Vamp,” said Raphael. “She had cow’s blood all over her. It was pretty sick.” He took another hit from the joint and gave it back to Angel Juan.

  “Let’s get out of here,” Cherokee said, wrinkling her nose at the burned smell in the air.